i salute you.

i've written a couple of these, but of course, knowing me, what i want to say to you is constantly changing...
unlike these people. you, probably the only ones who even read this silly blog, are the people in my life who have molded me more than anyone else i can think of. you deserve more, but for now a heart-felt shout out is all i can afford. [yeah, i kinda stole this from h-baby.]

Heather Renee: my gurrrrl. [codavia!] we've been besties since 8th grade, and phew... this girl is amaing. she's got the most perfect timing of anyone i know, she's beautiful beautiful, and she's the most dedicated girl i know. once you're in her band of brothers, as i am lucky enough to be, you're golden for life.

Benjamin Andrew Maerker: my person. if i were to get engaged, win the lottery, get preggo, or even just need to talk, he is the person i'd go to. just seeing him puts a huge smile on my face. he's like my walking livejournal... we read each other's 'black books', were show biz dance partners, and he's always ready and willing to bring along his kimberly when i need a double date. i love ya, man.

Ms. Abel: my coach [both in acadec and in life]. if it wasn't for her, i wouldn't even be writing this right now. [i'm kinda on her computer...] my sanity, and the big sister i always wanted. the only one brave enough to throw some cold water in my face when i need it. she's seriously the coolest 20-something year old i know. she's got some major karma racked up from putting up with me through almost three years of acadec. loves from your mei-mei.

Alex Dax Brown: my inspiration. one of the most artistic, romantic guys i know. i seriously think we have mirror image souls. he sees my complexities and doesn't shirk away. alex is someone i can show my deepest, darkest sides to and i know he'll still understand and love me. =]

Rachelle Brewer: my best friend! aw, my sweet girl... rachelle is a doll and a half. yes, she's forever away at college, but she's still probably going to be in my wedding line. [ha!] the only girl i'd ever take to 'make cookies for the elderly'. i love you, even if i sometimes forget to call you back.

Blake Anderson: my frat boy. blake is the jerkiest, meanest high school boy i know. but it's all a facade... he knows exactly when to stop being a jerk and start being a sweetie and wipe my tears away.
i mean, uh, blake's a jerk. and he makes me cry at night. [he'll punch me if i say anything else.]

Haylee Marie: my on again, off again notebook buddy. we've had a lot of ins and outs since eighth grade, lots of boys and lots of love. but she makes me a little cooler, and we have the same middle name. that's pretty awesome.

Tucker Bingham: my high school sweetheart. i've said it before, but he's the only person i know who could've dragged me kicking and screaming into being a grown up. i adore him with my whole heart [most of the time.] he's gone away, but after the last two and a half years, and especially the last summer, he's become my best friend, and i'll always have a piece of him with me.
also, that was too sappy, so he's pretty much a bad-A math tutor and fellow actor.

Karadoll Hancock: my favorite ginger. aw, that girl... she's beautiful, she's strong, and she's so dang awesome. she reminds me of sunshine; i can't look at her and not get smiley. she's an absoute doll, and she loves me more than i could ever deserve. =]

if i let you out, let me know and i'll write you something heartfelt as well.

breathe in, breathe out...

things are actually not as bad as i thought they'd be. i bit the bullet and switched my classes... and things are quite good. me llamo es espanol isabel. en phillippe, es espanol clase, says[?] 'isabel es bonita.' duh. haha just kidding!!
obviously, my mood has improved GREATLY. i'm taking my algebra final today... and guess what? if i got an 8.6% on my final, my final grade would be 87%. so basically... i'm home free!!! hurray!! exclamation points are cool!!!
orange juice, apple juice....
econ. props to kimberly. not that i'll ever study econ. nevermind i've scored second highest the last two years in acadec. they know i'll never study... [love you, ms. abel...]
i don't really know what else to write about..
oh i remembered!!
i got my young women's medallion on sunday! and i gave a talk. both ms. abel and tucker showed up, which made it better all around. finally, after five years of blood, sweat and tears... i have that cute little silver necklace.


so i can finally get my drivers license! [don't hold your breath, though...]
it's lunch, and i'm stuck at school. props to ms. abel for letting me on her computer. =]
anyways, i think i'm out. hope everyone is great, until i come up with something more profound to say!

>.<

Thursday was... interesting. after my flip out reality about being a senior on wednesday, i was definitely ready for some fun. so ben, kim, tucker and i [after tucker had to get a nasty shot- i had to hold his hand] went to my place. fter some well intended but not so fruitful attempts at playing cranium, we found this:


my sisters checked out two sailor moon movies from the library, and boy did we have fun with "Sailor Moon and the Dark Dream Hole". silly short skirted, long legged beauties with their awful voice acting. it was a blast, though. =]

so, STRESS. and a half. i just switched out of some of my classes, and basically committed social suicide. first semester i have government, advanced algebra, acadec, and spanish 1, then second semester i have seminary, chemistry, senior english and spanish 2. i'm going to have to completely nix on extra curriculars to keep up with this... translates into no theatre, no choir, no broadcasting. possibly even no after school acadec. i hope my faith in myself is well placed.
i made these changes for a couple of reasons... mostly because the track i was totally set on taking for my life... well it kinda died out. i was so sure i was going to go to MCC and do broadcasting, then transfer over to another college/university. but i was just getting bad feelings about it, being in the class and just thinking about it. i figured i could pass my algebra class this summer, maybe i can pass another math this year! which would leave me with four math credits, enough to go straight to a university.
i don't know... i'm kinda just feeling it out right now. all i know is, i'm not ready for summer to be over.
also, i'm speaking in church tomorrow! i'm getting my young women's medallion... bout time, too! if anyone wants to come [and be well behaved!!] my ward starts at 10 AM.
love you all!

Kiss Me, I'm A Senior

i totally forgot to wear my shirt today. it's a good thing, though.
basically... the last day before school was awesome... i spent a good two hours with benberly and tucker. [and ben's little brother, who WILL marry emilee.] it was the coolest thing ever... especially since tucker and ben look EXACTLY alike now. seriously... watch this. the only way we could tell them apart was tucker was with the blonde and ben was with the brunette.
ben and kim:


cass and tucker:


uncanny, eh?

anyway, today was the first day of school. i spent a good part of the afternoon bawling my eyes out... you would not BELIEVE me if i told you how badly i missed even the people i didn't like. i nearly started hyperventilating turing the assembly saying 'where's ricky? where's ricky?' it was absoutely terrifying for me to walk down the halls and know almost no one. everyone is like 'aw, you're a queen bee now, you're the top dog' [speaking up, um, weird analogies with animals? um?] but i don't want it.
I TAKE IT BACK!!! EVERYONE JUST.
long story short... i'm not ready to grow up.

but i was more than happy to hang out with my grown up friends today:




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