about time...

so, IT'S SPRING BREAK!!! HIP HIP HORRAY!

i'm pretty much having a blast... just chillin down in the valley with my dad. i love it. ^.^

in other news...

I'm going to prom!! with daniel williams. and i am pretty much psyched out of my mind. :] yup yup yup.

also, i'm working at bridal fair, which is absoutely amazing. come see me if you ever need shoes shines, or tuxes fitted... haha i'm your girl. we've got gorgeous dresses, and gorgeous workers. ;]

~~A MOMENT OF VENTING~~
i HATE HATE HATE it when you're on a date with someone, and they just sit there and text the whole time. i seriously, seriously hate it. so if you're planning on taking me on a date anytime soon, probably DON'T do that.
just saying.
~~END VENTING~~

so, what's new with everyone else?
hit me up!!

you know you love me,

[ps: newly addicted to gossip girls.]

over a week.

sometimes life just throws you a curveball, ya know?
you think you understand how things are, you think you've got it all figured out, then all of the sudden, everything you think you know just flies out the window.
i don't even know what i thought i knew, but i guess i didn't.

anyways, life is kinda sucking at the moment.
i quit the musical. it was just gonna be too much time and effort into a role i'm just really not that into.
i thought i had a relationship.
but that pretty much is on hold. [for quite a while.]
and i'm okay with that.
i just want to play the field for a little while... get my head on straight, ya know?
[or i could totally jump into a long-term commitment with this cutie cutie cutie from sem. *insert me melting here. like, imagine me as a popsicle on the fourth of july.*
i just want some fun.

which kinda sucks, since it's valentines day.
but i bought myself a present, so suck it couples. lol.

anyways, yeah. i'm doing better now.
i got my hair cut...
think victoria beckham.
[now if i could just get my hands on david...]

and here's the song of the week... it's by julie london.

Love is like a never-ending melody;
Poets have compared it to a symphony,
A symphony conducted by the lighting of the moon -
But our song of love is slightly out of tune.

Once your kisses raised me to a fever pitch;
Now the orchestration doesn't seem so rich.
Seems to me you've changed the tune we used to sing;
Like the bossa nova, love should swing.

We used to harmonize, two souls in perfect time;
Now the song is diff'rent and the words don't even rhyme,
'Cause you forgot the melody our hearts would always croon,
And so what good's a heart that's slightly out of tune?

Tune your heart to me the way it used to be;
Join with me in harmony and sing a song of loving.
We're bound to get in tune again before too long -
There'll be no desafinado
When your heart belongs to me completely,
So you won't be slightly out of tune,
You'll sing along with me.

acadec :]

so, acadec pretty much rocked face.
for being the person "who was gonna hold the team down" i had the second highest scores on the team.
pardon me, but
SUCK IT. oh.
i also medaled in art [what the... i know.] and i got a silver medal in essay.
two years in a row... who rocks?
it was especially nice, because the essay medal was presented to my by my sophomore english teacher.
who gave me a C and said i wasn't too promising in writing.
karma is sometimes my best friend.
not always, but sometimes.

in other news, i'm kinda stupid.
i know... it's not news. but still.
but ya know... somehow i don't feel dumb. i feel like i'm falling into place, ya know? like things are gonna be okay now that i've got things worked out in my head.
i mean, they're not completely worked out, but i still have a better grasp on my own emotions. i feel better about life.

i'm not proud of hurting other people, but...
miss abel is right.
"it's like you two can't breathe right if you're not touching."

how am i supposed to feel guilty over something i've put my whole soul in to?

two in one day, huh?

well, it wouldn't let me just edit the other one, so naturally i had to open an entire new blog.
i know it's a little early, but i really wanted to post the song of the week for next week. it's been on my mind a lot lately, and i'm not sure why. it's called 'awake' by secondhand serenade:

With every appearance by you, blinding my eyes,
I can hardly remember the last time I felt like I do.
You're an angel disguised.
And you're lying real still, but your heart beat is fast just like mine.
And the movie's long over,that's three that have passed, one more's fine.
Will you stay awake for me?I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything, I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string, I just don't wanna miss anything.
I'm trying real hard not to shake, I'm biting my tongue,
but I'm feeling alive and with every breathe that I take,
I feel like I've won.
You're my key to survival.
And if it's a hero you want, I can save you. Just stay here.
Your whispers are priceless.Your breathe, it is dear.
So please stay near.
Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything, I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe, I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.
Say my name. I just want to hear you say my name.
So I know it's true... You're changing me. You're changing me.
You showed me how to live. So just say.
So just say...
That you'll stay awake for me.
I don't wanna miss anything. I don't wanna miss anything.
I will share the air I breathe, I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything

i just... i love it so much. rachelle gave it to me, and she's totally right... i can't wait to dance to this song, wearing the poofy dress with that guy. whoever he is.
but i guess i narrowed down the list tonight... i hate it when schoolgirl crushes are crushed before they have the chance to bloom.

juju really seems to be speaking to me lately... i just really hope i'm interpreting it the way it's meant to be interpreted.
otherwise, well... i'll probably blog about it.

:]

"most conversations with parents go wrong because both parties are trying to have to come to an agreement. the truth is, talking shouldn't be about compromise, it should be about understanding the other person, and trying to get them to understand us, as opposed to fofrlcing our opinion on the other person."
a good friend of mine found that on a piece of paper in the hall.
and another dear friend said it was serendipitous.

but it's so true... if we spent less time speaking, and more time listening [i said listening, not hearing] then i really thing we could do alot for the world.