phew.

what a day... what a beautiful day. :]
started out nasty [and by started, i mean around 1 am] with a totally fun emotional freak out. but by around 1:30, i was good. more than good, i was peaceful.
then i got to sleep in [oh happy day!] then went to see my great grandpa, bob hanna.
that was... a mixed bag. i love my grandpa bob way way much, but this will probably be the last time i see him. i guess his last great words to me were
"doll, screw the looks. go straight for the checkbook."
he is a great man.
anyway, then i saw 21 [again!] and guess who's in love with jim sturgess. somethin about that boy.. yum. yum. yum.
dad and i basically just had a chill out day... lots of heart to hearts. i guess i'm just into those today. :]
so, i'm feeling a lot better about life, the universe and everything. i'm chill, i've gotten things worked out, and i'm ready to come home.
and if you're taking the time to read this, then i DEFINATELY want to hang when i get there.
i'm a little worried about math... i'm not sure how i'm going to get everything done in time. but as my tutor would say it, have a little faith.
we're going to go watch BUCKET LIST.
expect a good review.

day with rachelle. :]

marry me a little...

You can be my best friend, I can be your right arm.
We'll go through a fight or two-- No harm, no harm.
We'll look not too deep, We'll go not too far.
We won't have to give up a thing, We'll stay who we are.
Right? Okay, then...I'm ready! I'm ready now!
Someone-- Marry me a little, Love me just enough.
Warm and sweet and easy, Just the simple stuff.
Keep a tender distance So we'll both be free.
That's the way it ought to be.
my alex song. :]

seriously, though... sometimes i wish i could just be done. i want to have someone that i know i can lean on... someone that i know will never go away. i seem to have a hard time holding onto people like that. either i mess up, or they mess up, or the timing just isn't right, but no matter what, i still want it. sure, i love the whole footloose and fancy free, while the sunshines. then the clouds come in...

EFY was AMAZING!!! next blog will be filled with pics, promise. :D

Magnificent 17!

i feel... different?
nah. well, kinda. i have only been seventeen for twenty minutes now. it started much like how sixteen ended... tucker and i frantically writing notes for my algebra II final. we finished just as the clock struck 11:58, and i spent my last moments of sixteen reminiscing and listening to my high school sweetheart's heartbeat. [hugging is the best, FYI.]
if the rest of seventeen is anything close to the beginning, it's going to be an amazing year. :D
i'm not at warped, and i couldn't care less.
<3

look after my heart... i've left it with you.

my give up. i'm in love with these quotes from twilight:
~Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very Dark, but there were stars--points of light and reason...And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."
~"well I'm sorry I can't be the right kind of monster for you Bella!"-Jacob
~I wasn't interesting. And he was. Interesting...and brilliant...and mysterious...and perfect...and beautiful...and possibly able to lift full-sized vans with one hand. -Bella
~"You are exactly my brand of heroin." -Edward Cullen
~"When I Left you, Bella, I left you bleeding. Jacob was the one who stitched you back up again. That was bound to leave it's mark- on the both of you. I'm not sure those kind of stitched dissolve on their own. I can't blame either of you for somthing I made necessary. I may gain forgiveness, but that does not let me escape the consequences." Edward Cullen
~ "And so the lion fell in love with the lamb.' "What a stupid lamb." "What a sick masochistic lion."-Twilight
~ "Obviously no, if I was in hell you wouldn't be with me."-New Moon
~ "There's something strange about the way you two are together.The way he waches you...it's so protective.Like he's about to throw himself in front of a bullet for you or something."-Eclipse
~ "If all else perished and he remained, I would still continue to be. And if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the world would become a mighty stranger."- wuthering heights, quoted in new moon
~ "He's like a drug for you, Bella." His voice was still gentle, not at all critical. " I see that you can't live without him now. It's too late. But I would have been healthier for you. Not a drug; I would have been the air, the sun."
The corner of my mouth turned up in a wistful half-smile. "I used to think of you that way, you know. Like the sun. My personal sun. You balanced out the clouds nicely for me." He sighed."The clouds I can handle. But I can't fight with an eclipse."

basically i am in love with jacob black.