YES
i broke up with him. he broke up with me. we reached our break up date.
YES
i am basically a basket case.
YES
graduation was heartbreaking. i cried when i say KP walking away.
YES
i am glad david cook won.
YES
i am leaving tomorrow night for Utah, then Colby, Kansas, then back east for two weeks. i need it.
NO
i'm not okay, and
YES
i need a hug. also lots of benadryl.
i'll be okay eventually. i just need sometime.
Friday, May 23, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
lonely.
it's senior trip, and i'm just all on my lonesome.
but guess who's going on a date with danny tonight?
cheah. misscass. haha.
so, i'm blonde again... and i really dig it.
LATER THAT NIGHT:
Caspian was awesome. :]
Danny is my besty bud. forrizzle.
i can't wait for the seniors to get back. and soon after, i'm leaving on my church history trip. it should be awesomeawesomeawesome.
why do people freak out so much about holding hands, or even kissing in high school? we're supposed to have fun. and it's not like we're married or anything.
well, some of us are. but some of us aren't. open relationships, baby. open relationships are the way to go.
im just a little bit freakin, i suppose. because my open relationship is about to be a non-relationship. in, what, 72 hours?
if someone can come up with a 72hour survival kit to help me make it through those seventy two hours... let me know?
but guess who's going on a date with danny tonight?
cheah. misscass. haha.
so, i'm blonde again... and i really dig it.
LATER THAT NIGHT:
Caspian was awesome. :]
Danny is my besty bud. forrizzle.
i can't wait for the seniors to get back. and soon after, i'm leaving on my church history trip. it should be awesomeawesomeawesome.
why do people freak out so much about holding hands, or even kissing in high school? we're supposed to have fun. and it's not like we're married or anything.
well, some of us are. but some of us aren't. open relationships, baby. open relationships are the way to go.
im just a little bit freakin, i suppose. because my open relationship is about to be a non-relationship. in, what, 72 hours?
if someone can come up with a 72hour survival kit to help me make it through those seventy two hours... let me know?
Friday, May 16, 2008
the radness that is benberly.
Benjamin Andrew
will be the godfather of one of my sons.
can i just brag about how cool he is?
he's my person. you know, that person you can always go to with anything, and you know they a] won't judge you, and b] make everything seem better? i went to him crying once, and he spent twenty minutes talking to me about jedis. pretty awesome in my book.
and his other half is wonderful, as well. i mean, come on. how could you not just adore kim? she's pretty, she's witty, she's a little quiet, and she's got a subtle wicked web... just like me. but i don't have the subtle.
[[speaking of, i'm accepting applications... who's interested in being part of my awesome wicked web? ]]
i just watched Becoming Jane... and boy did i cry. of course, i cry lots lately, but even more than usual. because they just loved each other so much, they believed they could live off love. i truly wish they could have. but if they had, we would never have had all her work. anne hathaway is far too pretty to be jane austen. but i just wanted them to live happily ever after.
kinda to give me hope. :]
sweet dreams, dreamer.
i've got wicked plans for tomorrow... date with shake [hopefully!!] and hanging out with my tucker.
oh, and this is my new song:
If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.
'Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.
If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.
'Cause I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.
I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tears.
'Cause I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
will be the godfather of one of my sons.
can i just brag about how cool he is?
he's my person. you know, that person you can always go to with anything, and you know they a] won't judge you, and b] make everything seem better? i went to him crying once, and he spent twenty minutes talking to me about jedis. pretty awesome in my book.
and his other half is wonderful, as well. i mean, come on. how could you not just adore kim? she's pretty, she's witty, she's a little quiet, and she's got a subtle wicked web... just like me. but i don't have the subtle.
[[speaking of, i'm accepting applications... who's interested in being part of my awesome wicked web? ]]
i just watched Becoming Jane... and boy did i cry. of course, i cry lots lately, but even more than usual. because they just loved each other so much, they believed they could live off love. i truly wish they could have. but if they had, we would never have had all her work. anne hathaway is far too pretty to be jane austen. but i just wanted them to live happily ever after.
kinda to give me hope. :]
sweet dreams, dreamer.
i've got wicked plans for tomorrow... date with shake [hopefully!!] and hanging out with my tucker.
oh, and this is my new song:
If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.
'Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.
If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.
'Cause I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.
I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tears.
'Cause I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Acadec Sentamentality
well, i was just reading Miss Abel's blog, from last year... she was complaining about how our team from China year were whiny losers who couldn't do anything but fight about religion and ponder the deep philosophical query of "if the money part was taken out of prostitution, would it still be immoral?" [she swears it came up. i have no memory of this.]
I would just like to remind my favorite person in the world that that sucky whiny team took you to state. Ahem... suck it. lol.
actually, i really miss our last year acadec team. i miss state, i miss my 'corner', i miss ricky being my best friend. but don't tell him that. not that he would care... but just the same. :]
acadec was my family. it was the people i lived with. i think i actually became closer with my acadec team than almost any cast i've been a part of, aside from a midsummer night's dream. this year was good, too, but it was missing a few key elements... the corner was filled with hygiene kits, there was no blake, and no state.
but it's not like things will ever be the way they were back then. next year is gonna be HARD! i know i'll survive. but... it's the little things i'm dreading now... ya know? like walking down the halls. like going into woodward's and not having ricky come in. no more justin high fives. things i've always taken for granted.
okay, maybe i won't survive.
i have to go to school soon. i'm still working on my churchill paper... now it's a whole page and a half of sucky!
i'm getting on my knees, saying, baby, change me please.
I would just like to remind my favorite person in the world that that sucky whiny team took you to state. Ahem... suck it. lol.
actually, i really miss our last year acadec team. i miss state, i miss my 'corner', i miss ricky being my best friend. but don't tell him that. not that he would care... but just the same. :]
acadec was my family. it was the people i lived with. i think i actually became closer with my acadec team than almost any cast i've been a part of, aside from a midsummer night's dream. this year was good, too, but it was missing a few key elements... the corner was filled with hygiene kits, there was no blake, and no state.
but it's not like things will ever be the way they were back then. next year is gonna be HARD! i know i'll survive. but... it's the little things i'm dreading now... ya know? like walking down the halls. like going into woodward's and not having ricky come in. no more justin high fives. things i've always taken for granted.
okay, maybe i won't survive.
i have to go to school soon. i'm still working on my churchill paper... now it's a whole page and a half of sucky!
i'm getting on my knees, saying, baby, change me please.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
i will always find myself more interesting than winston churchill.
it's just a fact.
which is why my paper will not only be late, it will suck.
Why is it so cold? i'm always cold.
Upon reflection...
i need a cooler life. seriously. i need something to happen that is worth blogging about, because mostly i just babble. i'd be a philosopher, or a satirist, except i'm not funny, and sure enough of myself to tell everyone else to be think like me. besides the fact i don't think i'm as terribly original as i'd like to pretend. according to benny, i can't even tell a decent your mom joke anymore.
i don't know why i'm wasting my time complaining about how much i waste my time.
maybe i just need to go hand out with Danny. He always cheers me up... and i am pretty down today.
we watched this video in biology about the populations of countries, and how it's hard to get the birth/death rate... japan has too few young people, and india has too many old people.
Canada's pretty set, though.
i wish i wasn't so ADD... maybe then my paper would be done, my senior slideshow would be done, and my heart wouldn't be in pieces.
"they climbed into your heart, and tore your ventricles apart."
Seriously, though... i'm ready for summer. i'm ready for some summer loving. dates, dates, dates... that's all i want to do, all summer.
that and be juliet.
10:38PM:
"never be farther than a phone call and a goosebumped shiver away."
"drove all night listening to mix tapes."
"the past is just practice."
XKCD.
which is why my paper will not only be late, it will suck.
Why is it so cold? i'm always cold.
Upon reflection...
i need a cooler life. seriously. i need something to happen that is worth blogging about, because mostly i just babble. i'd be a philosopher, or a satirist, except i'm not funny, and sure enough of myself to tell everyone else to be think like me. besides the fact i don't think i'm as terribly original as i'd like to pretend. according to benny, i can't even tell a decent your mom joke anymore.
i don't know why i'm wasting my time complaining about how much i waste my time.
maybe i just need to go hand out with Danny. He always cheers me up... and i am pretty down today.
we watched this video in biology about the populations of countries, and how it's hard to get the birth/death rate... japan has too few young people, and india has too many old people.
Canada's pretty set, though.
i wish i wasn't so ADD... maybe then my paper would be done, my senior slideshow would be done, and my heart wouldn't be in pieces.
"they climbed into your heart, and tore your ventricles apart."
Seriously, though... i'm ready for summer. i'm ready for some summer loving. dates, dates, dates... that's all i want to do, all summer.
that and be juliet.
10:38PM:
"never be farther than a phone call and a goosebumped shiver away."
"drove all night listening to mix tapes."
"the past is just practice."
XKCD.
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